Why in the hell you let her slip by?

You are full of double standards,
Like a wave, it will eventually shift it time
I listen to decreese like commandments
I try to stay in line
But you play innocent
"this is heaven sent"
Yeah, I have somethings to say
But for now I can't look you in the face
I feel like we're waiting for the day that we will be better people,
Please tell me, how do you say?...
Let's be more realistic
I look through the tunnel and see this chaos never ends
I'm dreaming of a plane ride
that ends in a destination unknown to you
And that's that, it's you.
So your nap time carries more company than I like
I feel it in her glare,
Is this in spite?
It holds me like a whore this hatred I'm always coming back for more.
I am not the needle or the thread, I just watch the sower from his bed. Patching up the holes in the stories I've been fed
Those fairy tales, magic trails, they're only good for putting me to bed
They say this butter knife ain't dangerous, but like I see you I can see it has a double edge.
So goodnight baby have sweet dreams
Cus I can't sleep when you've torn out my seems
and high jacked my dream land
And destroyed all the hope
Please , oh please tell me
How her resting her head on you is part of physical accountability
If I had nap time with your father, could you blame me
And if you said you want emotional accountability, to take every thought into captivity
Then tell me how the things that she talks about falls into that plan
When you literally tell her to turn her chest away from you,
When in front of you inside her shirt her breast is cupped by her hand.
She tells me to walk wire to consider the struggle at hand to stay above board, that this is part of the plan.
Well you told me this time was different that things would be great,
But I'm crying out harder these past two days
Than I ever have cried for you
Cus I'm so done with your truth.
It's wrong, I shouldn't have to ever be used to another woman in your bed.
I will never be ok with on your shoulder her resting her head
Or making sure your foreheads touch when she's reading along.
I am not ok with this!
This my heart tells me is wrong
If no other woman who is not your wife
Is allowed to touch you
Then tell me why you let her slip by
If I am your love and we can't even hug
then tell me, tell ,tell me, me, tell.
Why in the hell you let her slip by?

Hostile element

I'm terrified of getting burned by this fire twice
I stand as close as I can cus your warmth feel real nice
When the rains start to pour, oh it never pour down lite
Then I watch in an instant your flames dim, in spite
of the fact that I'm trying
Despite the fact I'm done lieing
Despite the truth that I loved you once
And the fact that's the only thing I never did fight

They say every door has a handle
They say that mine is especially hard to grip
and if you looked twice you'd see I can stand all
of this firey mist.
Yeah every door has a handle,
every handle has a lock,
every lock needs a key, babe
This is where the truth starts to slip.
That it's you, and your fingers fit perfectly between mine
Oh it's you who took this stone heart and melted it til it was no longer submerged in ice.

They say my element is hostile
They blame 1/2 my childhood being a lie.
But that's only when they're being generious
Other wise they claim it's simply me and the plank in my eye

I stand firm in the oceans
Let it scream out it's best.
Then by morning still and silent
I've put it to rest.
Cus the sea is an alias and analogy of me
Always prone to be raging when your rain clouds are seen.

Mirrors and reflections, I turn away from all of those
The things that are truthful, the things that expose
You're firey hands take my sand and turn it to glass.
to see straight through my forgotten past.
to the recesses of time, where I lost my mind.
I turn away from all forms of joy dear
Except for you love
You're exactly what you seem.
You've always been to real to be something that I could just dream.

Sparrow

I looked out the windows as we passed baren fields.
Who'd just offered up all the grain that they could yeild.
The sun was setting behind te silos high.
When in one moment a sparrow caught my eye.
She soared through the wind like freedom was her name
But the flaps of her wings told my heart that she had know great pain
Enamered by beauty still from far away I could see
She was as lonely as I imagine a fallen star to be.
A lonely traveler over open feilds will nothing to give, cus they offered all that they could yeild
I am a passer with no right to stay and fly over feilds in the end of the day
And I imagine my thoughts are much like hers
far bellow the windy curves
Flying in one place
it might look like you don't go far.
But in her hear she has seen the stars and known them all by first names
They greet her with majestic grace
Sparrow flyin'
a traveler with no shoes
Fallin' star
I would've stayed with you
and flown a world that had nothing to give
Cus it has offered it's all
and still on we'd live.
Soaring sparrow flyin' high
Nothing more celestial has ever caught my eye.

July 31st 2011

You the feeling when you're where you shouldn't be?
I know it very well inside my dreams.
When faces look with such distain,
it's so distracting I forget my name.
And where I'm from, and how to breathe
I cease to remember I am a key
not the lock,
solitary and still,
I am a traveling key with a heart of will,
To journey far from what I've known,
past the pound of the skipping stones.
Through the forest for the trees,
far from where you know me.
This sparrow ventures far,
but she always comes back.
Plain as day, with eyes of the blackest black.
I travel far so I can truly see,
what it was I was hiding with lock, to make me a key.

Home- Edward Sharpe and The Magnetic Zeroes

Jonny this is for you ... always

Beauty in the Break Down

6/15/11 10:35 am

I heard that this would be easier if I just walked away.
But it's your choice if you choose to endure, so choose to walk or stay.
I read that she is tempting, a woman of true faith.
I read that you're repenting of all your lustful ways.
I heard it in the car, those notes that pierce my soul.
I've prayed for patience knowing, that God knows us as a whole.
So while you seek to surrender to wait for what he has planned.
I'm skipping in the grass knowing not one thing is out of His hands.

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If you stay around...

If you stay around, and make my home your home.
Then I'll stay here forever, without any other place to go.
If you stay up late, and we barely hug goodnight.
Then I'll sleep with one heart open, praying that it will be alright.
If you learn the rabbi, and tell me to submit.
Then surely I'll reciprocate, and still wonder how I fit.
If you love me in my dreams, and by morning it's still there
Then I'll keep this sparkle on my eye, and hope that tomorrow you'll still care

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Feel it in my bones- Tegan and Sarah

Blow by blow, I didn't see it coming

Blow by blow, sucker punch

Rushes in Here to stay

Rushes in

You are here to stay

What rushes into my heart and my skull I can't control

Think about it, feel it in my bones

What rushes into my heart and my skull I can't control

I feel you in my bones

You're knocking on my windows

You're slow to letting me go

And I know this feeling oh-so

This feeling in my bones

Left hook, I didn't see it coming

Left hook, you've got today

Rushes out

Run away

Rushes out

You always run away

What rushes into my heart and my skull I can't control

Think about it, feel it in my bones

What rushes into my heart and my skull I can't control

I feel you in my bones

You're knocking on my windows

You're slow to letting me go

And I know this feel oh-so

This feeling in my bones

I feel you in my bones

You're knocking on my windows

You're slow to letting me go

And I know this feeling oh-so

This feeling in my bones

I feel it in my bones

At night my skull feels pressure

I feel it in my bones

I feel it in my bones

I feel you in my bones

You're knocking at my windows

You're slow to letting me go

And I know this feeling oh-so

This feeling in my bones

I take a breath, take a breath with me blow by blow

I take a break, take a break, tell me you are here to stay

I take my heart out of my chest, I just don't need it anymore

Take my head out of the game, I just don't need it anymore

Take a breath, take a breath with me blow by blow

Take a break, take a break, tell me you are here to stay

I take my heart out of my chest, I just don't need it anymore

Take my head out of the game, I just don't need it anymore

I feel you in my bones

You're knocking at my windows

You're slow to letting me go

And I know this feeling oh-so

This feeling in my bones

Faster- Rachel Yamagata

I can't talk to you

You think I'm lost inside my mind

You're like an old tattoo

And I know you'll fade in time

I'm not the girl you think you know

I'm not the girl you waited for

I'm not the one for you

It's just one thing left to do

Why don't you let me be?

'Cause I'm a million miles away

Why don't you set me free?

You don't treat me like you said

I won't tuck you in one last time

I'm taking back what is mine

For me, I belong to me

And I'm going faster, you're going backwards

You're gonna miss me when I'm gone

I'm going faster, I know what I'm after

I should've been after it all along

I'm going faster

I'm going faster

That's the last black eye

I hope I ever give to you

Yeah, I had a good time

But what's a girl supposed to do?

Take the pictures off the wall

They don't look like us at all

They don't look like friends

I've got new things to begin

Why don't you let me be?

'Cause I'm a million miles away

Why don't you set me free?

I belong to me

And I'm going faster, you're going backwards

You're gonna miss me when I'm gone

I hang from the ceiling, I feel what I'm feeling

I should've been feeling it all along

I'm going faster

I'm going faster

I'm going faster, you're going backwards

You're going to miss me when I'm gone

I hang from the ceiling, I feel what I'm feeling

I should've been feeling it all along

I'm going faster

I'm going faster

Merry Happy- Kate Nash

Watching me like you never watch no one

Don't tell me that you didn't try and check out my bum

Cause I know that you did

Cause your friend told me that you liked it

Gave me those pearls and I thought they were ugly

Though you try to tell me that you never loved me

I know that you did

'Cause you said it and you wrote it down

Dancing at discos

Eating cheese on toast

Yeah you make me merry make me very very happy

But you obviously, you didn't want to stick around

Dancing at discos

Eating cheese on toast

Yeah you make me merry make me very very happy

But you obviously, you didn't want to stick around

So I learnt from you

Do do do da do do do do do da do do do do do da do

So I learnt form you

Do do do da do do do do do da do do do do do da do

I can be alone, yeah

I can watch a sunset on my own

I can be alone, yeah

I can watch a sunset on my own

I can be alone

I can watch a sunset on my own

I can be alone, yeah

I can watch a sunset on my own

I can be alone, yeah

I can watch a sunset on my own

I can be alone

I can watch a sunset on my own

Sitting in restaurants

Thought we were so grown up

But I know now that we were not the people

That we turned out to be

Chatting on the phone

Can't take back those hours

But I won't regret

'Cause you can grow flowers

From where dirt used to be

Dancing at discos

Eating cheese on toast

Yeah you make me merry make me very very happy

But you obviously, you didn't want to stick around

Dancing at discos

Eating cheese on toast

Yeah you make me merry make me very very happy

But you obviously, you didn't want to stick around

So I learnt from you

Do do do da do do do do do da do do do do do da do

So I learnt from you

Do do do da do do do do do da do do do do do da do

I can be alone, yeah

I can watch a sunset on my own

I can be alone, yeah

I can watch a sunset on my own

I can be alone

I can watch a sunset on my own

(do do do da do do do do do da do do do do do da do)

I can be alone, yeah

I can watch a sunset on my own

I can be alone, yeah

I can watch a sunset on my own

I can be alone

I can watch a sunset on my own

(do do do da do do do do do da do do do do do da do) 

Ivy house inside my dreams

Ivy stains a house inside my dreams,
Where a little girl with big brown curls plays with her wild schemes.
I stand inside the kitchen,
starting out my day,
You're always waiting around the corner,
to make my heart jump and sway.
Our little boy's a ninja,
Who's always questioning,
Our little girls a ballerina, day by day changing what she'll be.
And your kisses taste like sunshine,
And your laugh's just like the rain,
It's always so refreshing When it pours down on my pains.
Our possibilities are endless,
In the house we're more in love,
Then we ever imagined to be blessed with, from our father up above.
And our cats are playing silly games,
They look just like you and me.
And out love is so forever in that house inside my dreams.

Speechless

less

I can’t belive what you said to me

Last night when we were alone

You threw your hands up

Baby you gave up, you gave up

I can’t believe how you looked at me

With your James Dean glossy eyes

In your tight jeans with your long hair

And your cigarette stained lies

Could we fix you if you broke?

And is your punch line just a joke?

I’ll never talk again

Oh boy you’ve left me speechless

You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

I can’t believe how you slurred at me

With your half wired broken jaw

You popped my heart seams

On my bubble dreams, bubble dreams

I can’t believe how you looked at me

With your Johnnie Walker eyes

He’s gonna get you and after he’s through

There’s gonna be no love left to rye

And I know that it’s complicated

But I’m a loser in love

So baby raise a glass to mend

All the broken hearts

Of all my wrecked up friends

I’ll never talk again

Oh boy you’ve left me speechless

You’ve left me speechless so speechless

I’ll never love again,

Oh friend you’ve left me speechless

You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

Hooow?

Haaaa-oooo-wow?

H-ooow?

Wow

Haaaa-oooo-wow?

H-ooow?

Wow

And after all the drinks and bars that we’ve been to

Would you give it all up?

Could I give it all up for you?

And after all the boys and girls that we’ve been through

Would you give it all up?

Could you give it all up?

If I promise to you boy

That I’ll never talk again

And I’ll never love again

I’ll never write a song

Won’t even sing along

I’ll never love again

So speechless

You left me speechless, so speechless

Why you so speechless, so speechless?

Will you ever talk again?

Oh boy, why you so speechless?

You’ve left me speechless

Some men may follow me

But you choose “death and company”

Why you so speechless? Oh oh oh

I Got to Thinking Just Me and You

You needed on true friend

I searched for someone to find me and bring me back again.

& in the mix of rearranging my dreams

I watched you preform for the world,

one of your biggest scemes.

          I got to thinking that maybe it was ook living life your way.

          A show is still a show, no matter who preforms the play.

You have a laugh that contagiously filled a hole inside of me

I had some eyes that saw you for who you are.

& in the motion of commotion I watched your face keep such composure,

& I craved to see you crack.

           I got to thinking that we are two of the same,

          different hearts, and different names,

          different dreams playing the same game,

          we are two of the same.

You have a side that you keep free from commitment and responsiblility,

I have a side that wants to shut you out, burn these bridges down.

& while we sat present with fake smiles, we saw each other;s souls,

& looked into each innner child.

There's always so much we both want to say.

          I got to thinking that, yes, the past has been a constant friend,

          But I'd like to get around to living again,

          & I wouldn't mind if you wanted to exist there too,

          I think this train could take us far, right to where the moon and stars

          co- exist like we do.

         Just me and you.